I blame myself.

I hate to be made fun of. 

I hate that I'm sensitive. 

I hate it when I'm being belittled.

I hate it. I hate almost everything about myself. 

When conflict happens I can't voice out my true thoughts because it shows how vulnerable and hateful I am. 

I refuse to show such a side of mine. 

However remaining quiet has not been working well for me as well. 

Im deemed as guilty (which may be true). 

Im seen as if I'm avoiding the problem (which may be true as well because I wished that the problem has not existed at all). 

Noone will be able to accept the way I am when facing such issues unless one is being extremely big hearted and able to overlook my weaknesses. 

A person like me needs someone who is willing to give way and open up a path for me to walk by through the issue knowing that I'm very well aware of my own issues and that I'm working on it. Most importantly is to forgive me. 

I can only blame myself for everything that has happened. 

Even as much as I would like to avoid the blame. 

Or even if the blame isn't on me. 

I'm the cause for all.