Please accept my ugly side. I beg you?

We started living together really soon. You brought me back to meet your family when we were not even together for 2 months. I brought you to meet mine not too long after that too. I fell in love and got attached to you so quickly that I was and am maybe still too afraid that I may lose you. You become such a huge part of my life that I seriously could not picture my life or even a day without you. Despite my insecurities and my heart broken so many times, I choose to be with you. Because I really want us to last. I just hope that you could accept me and my toxic thoughts in the future. Forgive me for my selfishness.